`captivated; vindicated

the end

2007-12-30T20:13:00.000+08:00

okay. back from nco camp on fri.
was lik okay larh, but quite tough thopugh.
but got thru it still.

mayb becos nv eat much or nt enuf slp or wad,
got flu since day2, having bad sore throat now and even cough.
siann.

but still got quite a lot of things to complete though.
1. SS/CE photo hw
2. CSSP Proj.
3. Drill schedule by tue.
4. Total Defence silver.

haix. soo siann leh.
going sch reopen liao.
no more late nites. haix. hav to enjoy the last of holidaes.
off to complete photo hw liao. =)

homework

2007-12-20T00:59:00.000+08:00

and the show witch yoo hee is sooo nice!
tune in to chnl U at 10pm to watch. LOL.

jus completed around 1/2 and a lil more of hcl 800 words
de du hou gan. =.= hahas. but actually nt bad larh, wrote
around 3 3/4 pages liao...guess shld finish soon bah.
nt bad of an achievement=)

since jus had a hardwork, gotta go play games liao loh.

he's the reason

2007-12-13T16:18:00.000+08:00

Came across this very nice song on 98.7 FM.was
attracted to it after listening for only once.
wif a nice tune and meaningful lyrics.
here it goes.

Teardrops on my guitar - Taylor Swift

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see
That I want and I'm needing everything that we should be
I'll bet she's beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she's got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it's so damn funny
That I can't even see anyone when he's with me
He says he's so in love, he's finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he's all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can't breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She'd better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she's lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I'll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
He's the song in the car I keep singing, don't know why I do
He's the time taken up, but there's never enough
And he's all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won't see.

and it portrays my feelings so perfectly.

addicted!

2007-11-30T15:11:00.000+08:00

god. i tink im addicted to facebook!
hahahs. whole dae pet tis, pet tat.
then play pirates all tat.
hahahas. gtg liao, continue pirating wif yanling!
hahahsxD

2007-11-30T00:58:00.000+08:00

What Your Bathroom Habits Say About You

You are a very considerate person, but that doesn't mean you let people walk all over you.

Your look is put together, classic, and stylish. You always look fashionable without trying.

You have the perfect blend of confidence and class. You're proud of who you are - but you don't broadcast it.

In relationships, you tend to be very romantic and demanding. You'll treat your partner like gold, but you expect a lot in return.

What Do Your Bathroom Habits Say About You?

im from mars!

2007-11-30T00:25:00.000+08:00

You Are From Mars

You're energetic, althletic, and totally hyperactive.
You love playing sports and being in the middle of all of the action.
You're independent, corageous, and brave. Unafraid to do things your way.
Mars can be reckless, quick tempered, and a little too spontaneous.
So think before you act - and resist your natural urges to dominate others.

What Planet Are You From?

gone.

2007-11-29T18:05:00.000+08:00

bad news! no more chalet liao..
=.= cos the only daes unbooked are
29 and 30 dec i tink. but the prob is tat its way too ex.
imagine $400+ for a dae i tink. and theres only one rm
with 4 beds. dorts. how do we even stay over at a chalet
when we hav 20+ ppl and only 4 pathetic beds and not
even a decent kitchen and sufficient space for activities.
hahas. hope tat at least a gathering will b held.=)

going to supposedly amk tis sat.
wif cousins and aunts! finally get to see them.
hahas. only got to contact one of them about her psle results.
haix. but then dun tink will buy any clothes or bags etc, cos
no money..>.< but if realli see anyting tat die die mus buy then
mayb hav to persuade mum to sponsor.xD

eventful

2007-11-27T01:34:00.000+08:00

would like to thank all the ppl who was dere by me when i was down.hahas. the tough decisions were all over.had to listen to parents lor. and not join the ccteam.cos wad they say was rite. dere would be many trainings that falls on sat and yet i hav tuition. how do i change the days then...
then during wkdays, dere is oso trainings, oso had to change days.so? means i will miss lotsa tuition. and i noe i carn afford that. not at all. so, just had to giv up the chance of joining. haix. no choice, studies=a bright future. thats wad they say. lol. hahas. starting a new yr, so mayb shld oso change work attitude all tat bah.

had been a bz wk, painting hse since sat. was soo tired man. neck aching. haix, nt enuf pt lor. so aft these few daes hav to go run wif yanling and kelly they all liao. plus, my damn hair is making me soo frustrated! haix. but mayb still hav to wait till afew wks lata bah. cos carn expect me to cut 2 times n jus 2 mths rite. probably afew daes b4 j-nco course, which is jus the dae aft christmas!
hahas. actually makes no diff larh. just being lazy =x...looking forward to yet another chalet! but tis time is wif family. probably gonna feel alot diff cos it would nt b as fun as compared to esix chalet!=)
wifout the esix ppl around its jus soo siann. hahas. no jokes no bitching sessions no nite-water-activities no waking-up-at-3+am-to-play-or-go-beach and oso no pran calls and mahjong. hahahs. a whole list of things-done at the previous chalet. hahas. had to learn to let go bah.=D
at least will be tgt wif my beloved cousins brightens my dae!xD

frustration

2007-11-22T18:05:00.000+08:00

suddenly i feel so vexed.
have i chosen the wrong class?
if i didn't choose that class, i could have been
in the same class as all my gd frens.
and also get to noe ruihan better, if he got into e3.

well, back to the same old thing, either for frens or studies.

now, competitions.
i realli want to join the campcraft team, but i am afraid that
i cannot cope with my studies.
and that if i join, i realli hav to manage myself well.
sufficient time for studies, tuition and training.
haix. all i can say is tat those are all jus excuses.
so now i hav around 14hrs to decide to join or not to.
and to decide to work hard or not to.
and oso choose to cope or not to.
haix. i jus kept thinking, 'god...why does it have to be me..'
well, thats life i guess.

i don't know if i am up to it.
i wish someone could tell me what to do and lead me on.
my sense of direction is lost.

xD

2007-11-19T22:58:00.000+08:00

ruihan, dun say i nv update kae.
i did liao. hahahs.
tok sometime lata hor!xD

family dae

2007-11-17T22:40:00.000+08:00

eldest kor brought family to thai express to eat todae.
the food dere was sooo hot and spicy and nice!!
hahs. had the special tom yum seafood fried rice.
YUMMM! hahas. a lil spicy but nevertheless delicious.
oso got to try a taste of others tat they ordered.
the green curry had a taste of coconut milk or sumting liddat
that was too rich for me. din realli lik it.
but the soft shell crab rice was super duper uber nice!
sooo crispy and curry. yummy yummy! hahahs.

gotta go dere to eat again!

aft tat went to cousin's 21st birthdae party.
was pretty okay. hahas. was wondering when will it be mine.
7 yrs lata!

timeline:

elder kor -> 2 yrs lata

meeee! -> 7 yrs lata

cousins: kenneth -> 8 yrs lata

joanne -> 9 yrs lata

kathy -> 10 yrs lata

jeffrey -> 12 yrs lata

ginn -> 13 yrs lata

winston -> alot alot more yrs lata

hahahs. was siann so did that.
and i figured that it will be a long 5 yrs aft
kor's when it reaches mine. then it will be lik consecutive
yrs for the others. hahahas. so for that 5 yrs the adults hav
to save money ehh? hehs.
haix. i tink 7 yrs is a long long time lata.
but others always tell me that it is in a blink of an eye.
lol. wonder what i'll be lik. hahas.

reunions and separations.

2007-11-16T22:26:00.000+08:00

got combination results todae!
got into 3e2. hahas. dunno shld be happy ornot.
was lucky tat i got in, cos i noe tat b3 for science
is nv gonna get me into tat class.
well, lik wad liwei said, 3e2 is sooo rojak.
having her, ziyi, ivan, uchan, me, ruiying and keying
is lik, all from diff cliques xcept for her and keying.
hahas. i m so gonna miss my clique!=x

dunno if i shld regret nt putting 3e3 as my first choice.
cos laoba, yanling and alot of my gd frens are all inside.
haix, but for studies sake, had to stay on.
family was happy bout it, and all tink tat i could do it.
hope so bah.

happy moments dun last long.
so i hope that all the memories will still be remembered
in everyone's hearts.

gd luck to those who are appealing.
and gd luck to esix peeps and others out dere,
hope that you guys will do well in ur classes.=)
jiayou!

liwei, 8 yrs and counting!xD

esix will always be a flame that burns.
but even when it stops burning,
the burnt marks will still be left in our hearts.
which are the memories we share tgt.
as a class. the spirit of esix will be forever.<33

2007-11-14T20:00:00.000+08:00

chalet was fun!
well, no words can describe it.=)
thnks lots to eliada& her parents!

Chalet!woo~!

2007-11-06T00:56:00.000+08:00

chalet's coming!hahs!
sooo excited.
but becos of tat, got to be 'blackmailed' by parents.
cos in order to go and even stay for 3 days 2 nites,
i had to put in alot of effort. well, not alot i guess, but
jus tat i m lazy?

had to pack rm, be grounded at home and be guai.
haix. cos they feel that i hav been going out for too many days liao.
its lik wth? i only go out for 2 days for shopping and others are jus
for cca and tuition? and later they somehow relate to other matters and chalet.
haix. carn understand them at times. sometimes i jus hope that they do not draw
conclusions to anything i do. its just so wrong. they just dun trust me and things liddat.
restrictions and quarrels. haix.just had to bear with it all for the sake of esix and our
one and only chalet.

looking forward to watching sunrise and sunset! and definitely the sleepover and the fun we are going to hav at the chalet!

signing off!
chalet chalet chalet, 3 days 2 nites. woots!

oh dear.

2007-10-31T22:44:00.000+08:00

well, something to say:

i m missing esix already every single day!
carn wait to go to the chalet sia..
but goodbye is not nice.
i guess i wun be able to take it on the last day huh.
well...jus look forward to the chalet, the most important thing!
7th n 8th november 2007..
carn wait!

as yanling said, must be patient. hahas.
but its sooo hard.

jus rotting at home every single day or
jus going to sch for cca.
oh dear. a day without esix kills.

2e6`o7

2007-10-28T17:41:00.000+08:00

Blog is too dead to be revived.
however, this is a thing too important to not post.

2e6 2007, a tie to hold onto, a bond that never breaks.

its the sole reason of the happy life i m leading.
the tears, the joy, the sour moments, the bitter moments.
the teachers, a class of unity and strength.
we went thru all obstacles to be what we are today.
we strived together against all odds to our goals.
nothing stands in our way.
unity is strength, thats what we believe in.

the moments spent together will not be forgotten,
the bonds we formed between one another will never break.
#40, ms tan, is the one who pushes us on, motivating us.
never giving up on us and cares about us.
the one who we respected and loved so much.

all those are what that moulded us to be who we are.
to the rest of class 2e6 2007,
good luck to your future and take cares.
keep in contact alright.

updates, results.

2007-10-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

finally here to update, aft nearly a mth?
hahs. hav been basically 'mugging' for the past wks.
but, jus simply dunno y i carn seem to focus.
when studying, my eyes are on the teevee screen. o.O
haix. so stressed larh, but still liddat.

aniwae, real great tat exams over.
gotten the results todae.
everything was unexpected.
science, which i tot i would score the best& history which i will score the worst
over all the subjs, the results were surprising& disappointing.

my history even scored the highest out of all subjs& science was jus the average of all.
well, realli damn surprised tat history scored well.
imagine nt memorising the last 2 chaps of history& i would get an a1 from it.
its lik wth can. but its of pure luck lor.
the essay qns came out to be the 1st 2 chaps, tat i studied in detail.
lucky ehh. &to be even glad, i scored 25/25 for the section c essay!
though i noe its nth as compared to others.
however, i lost at the short-ans qns, which pulled my marks down alot.
even the full marks did nt help.

aniwae, overall, all subjs passed(fortunately), &maths i was even unexpected.
the 1 which i tot i sure fail, as others all said it was manageble but i carn even
complete the paper on time. but is low as compared to others larh.
but nvm, as long as i win myself can le.=)

english was bad, hcl was better than expected, but still nt gd.
lastly, i did not regret at all for doing macbeth &nt being able to finish the unseen
poem& prose. cos macbeth saved my life! woots! even if i m able to anyhow write
for the unseen and skip macbeth for awhile, i did not. cos i tink macbeth more impt.
& i was rite. i scored alot better than if i did the unseen, supposedly.but part of the
reason was also due to me making the effort to even study& try to memorise macbeth.
but regretted nt putting in enuf effort to study for previous lit tests.
but aniwae, lik mum always said, 'wads done has been done. it wun change even if u regret
&be sad over it' so, everyting teaches u to put in effort in everything you do& must not hug the buddha's leg in the last min.

signed off!=)
updating tmr.perhaps.
i love macbeth!xD

mug mug mug~

2007-09-19T20:32:00.000+08:00

todae dunno y so tired.
yawn yawn yawn. haix.
drawn out my calendar liao.
planned for mugging sessions &recorded exam dates.

1 more wk left to prepare for exams,
excluding paper 1s. its so fast yet so slow.
MUG MUG MUG is all i can do.
i gotta wake up before its too late.

gtg mug liao. bye guys.
updating a long time lata i guess.
gd luck everyone!

5 more weeks left of 2e6`o7
but the spirit within continues.
those precious memories.

home econs tremor!

2007-09-19T20:08:00.000+08:00

had the home econs practical,
haix. quite bad larh.
the 'chewy bar' was chewy in the wrong sense.
presentation, nt suitable. then it was lik such a failure.
but seriously, i tink tat the recipe got prob larh.
aft 2 attempts still kana sai.
or mayb i m not cut out for cooking. hahas.
aniwae, still can pass lor.
aft test, papa &mama still fried eggs &sausages for us to
share lor. so nice! thnks loads to u all!=)

aft tat, had mugging session wif yanling!
went to look for mr choo!
revised for physics of cos.
hahas. was pretty relaxing &understand some concepts liao.
lik finally lor. he had to leave around 3.45pm liddat, so went
to class to mug. wanted to revise science &write notes, but no
new bk, so revised maths. now hav to chiong arh.

blackish

2007-09-16T19:42:00.000+08:00

everything was almost blackish.
guess wad i saw...
a 'chao ta' or over-ovened so called 'chewy bar' .
it was such a failure man. but we were lucky tat we tried
before the home econs test. or else it would be a havoc.
well, liwei came to my hse to bake the 'chewy bar'.
went to buy the ingredients. Cranberries! LOVE!
then mix mix, stir stir, spread spread then bake bake.
then most importantly, chao ta.

hahas. but nt bad though.
cranberries &raisins were nice!
hope we dun fail the home econs test!=x

lotsa fun!

2007-09-15T19:24:00.000+08:00

todae was a fun fun fun day!
morning had service day & went knocking
on resident's home to spread crime prevention messages.
was okay lor. jus tat it rained &made us pretty wet.

actually supposed to hav mugging session, but turned out to be
'bitching session' instead. hehs.

nx up was carpark duty!xD
love it man! although was slacking &seems to be crapping
during it. cos was quite siann. i jus nid to remove the chairs
from the reserved lots when the vips come.
while doing duty suddenly heard ppl calling my name lor.
then the voices seem rather familiar. turned out to be papa &mama!
hahas. was pretty shocked lor, cos din expected them to b in the rm &
can still recognise me when it was lik so far away. hehs.
but den, one vip was lik so damn late larh, so had to 'pang seh' her &end duty.
although was slacking, but learned quite alot of things.=)

aft tat went to meet yanling!
hahas. &she was so excited about lanterns.hehs.
nt bad larh, since quite fun. aft tat chiong-ed to claudia's hse dere
the playgrd to meet papa &others, with yanling, tzinyi, rebecca & angela
papa they all played wif fire, candles &sparks all tat while the few of us jus go playgrd.
hahas. was siann, so played truth or dare! but always the truth instead of the dare chosen.
hehs. aft tat papa joined in. den tinking it was late, so asked papa if he can send us to the braddell rd dere the bustop, &he agreed! in the end, he did send us to the bustop as promised. so thnks alot arh papa! you r the best!=))

mug mug mug

2007-09-14T23:51:00.000+08:00

haix. forgot to bring yanling's disc home to rip!=(
tmr gonna be a long long day.
morning to do service day, then flagstaff practise.
break for lunch! &the mugging session wif ruiying!=)
got myself prepared to do lit, maths &science.
hope can complete all tmr.
then, carpark duty!xD
the one i love the most! so fun.
but mayb a lil late for zhss anniversary cum mooncake fest. concert.
hope can get to catch CO performance.
yanling, i'm watching you! hahas.

all i can think nowadays is to get more wksheets from trs &to find time to mug at mac! at least its for a gd purpose=)

&i'm gonna survive this crisis!

crushed

2007-09-13T22:51:00.000+08:00

was so high in class todae!
hahas. was singing& singing during lessons.
but i m still listening to the lesson though.
jus relaxing abit.

ppr results r out.
quite okay lor. some unexpected grades.
but, overall percentage is low as compared to others.
70%. hmmm. gotta buck up loads on lit& maths.
they r pulling me down. oso got to do even better for other
subjects oso, cos they r jus afew marks above the cut-off pt
for the grade, so it is nt tat satisfying even if i got an A2.
not being proud& theres nth to b proud of, ppl.

but, can see that nowadays getting hardworking liao.
was much serious during lessons& was doing revisions.
gd improvement! gotta keep it tis way.
hope tat everyting tat i did would help me in achieving desired
marks. &oso get into the subject comb. i want.
jia you!=) i guess i could learn better in study grps.
but self-study is too, required after that.

i'm so crushed.

updates

2007-09-12T23:56:00.000+08:00

long long time since i updated, but since
tats the case, will nt update past events then.
useless aniwae. lessons are pretty okay.
its either being hardworking, or pure slacking.

science, maths n history tests returned.
but, sorta disappointed, cos alot of careless mistake.
which aren't supposed to be made cos every mark is impt.
but since, thats the case, have to work hard for upcoming exams.

class tee design was veh impressive!
gd job=)
well. for the painting for art, it was crap.
in a gd mood to paint, but the paint jus aint lik me.
they do not want to work well todae.
the colours went wrong, paintbrush too thick.
it jus sucks. i guess i m seriously nt up to standard for art.
xD

well, late late, gotta go slp.

somehow, you and i collide.

updates

2007-08-26T20:24:00.000+08:00

nth much to update.
but since my blog is so dead...
sat went to sch for sungei buloh briefing part 2.
lol. sian as usual. trying many patterns to slp but all not comfortable.
hahas. aniwae, so hungry during break.
wanted to eat chicken rice de. but nv open.
so ate maggie while ry n yl ate cheese fries n anqila ate push pop.
hahas. were discussing bout sweets back then.
aft tat went to meet mum at j8, shopped around but nth to buy.
was in a veh veh gd mood todae. mum was happy bout it too!=))
so enjoyed todae veh much.

went to da-yi's hse aft tat. alone can. 1st time though.
but luckily i was nt tat stupid n got to her hse safely.=)
watch tv, chat liao then parents finally came.
ask them da bao dinner up while stayed to watch tv wif bro.
hahas. wait till so hungry.watched campus superstar.
was so happy when the praying muntis lost. woo!
hahas. but benjamin din win leh, he was still gd aniwae=D
as for shawn, dun realli lik his voice larh, nt suitable for some songs,
but since he won, congrats to him aniwae, he was gd at tis age.

todae. woke up early n went to er-gu hse to pray.
food was sooo nice! hehs. but came home early instead of staying till evening.
why? cos of the damn sch hw. gd larh. at least dunnid to rush when going home late.
then blogging now, dun wan to study history. cos its siann. nid memorise.
but, since geo so lan, had to do well for history then take it nx yr.
bo pian. chiong arh.

siann

2007-08-22T21:22:00.000+08:00

haix. a wk nv post le.
on mon we won the debate for a team,
lost for a team. its okay guys.
esix mus jia you!
dun be held back by failures.
aniwae, was the host.
hahas, reading from the papers wif no
eye contact again. hehs.
i paid my hi to ruihan liao.
so nx time no matter who see who first,
mus still say hor=))

nowadays got both happy and sad events.
well, mus work hard man.
lit results nt tat gd.
others still okay but nt gd enuf.
siann....

2007-08-17T20:36:00.000+08:00

finally understood how great motherly love was.
called mum to help me bring beret to j8 dere to pass to me,
cos i forgot to bring. she was nt tat happy to pass to me at first,
cos she'll nid to rush for work. well, understand.
then received unexpected news. bro sms me tat mum gonna bring
it to my sch! was sooo shocked. i seriously did not imagine it.
was so touched lor. then quickly rushed to meet her aft sch.
she was dere, waiting for me. i tot she nt tat happy to see me cos
i troubled her so much. but when she saw me, she was so relieved n happy.
passed me the beret n hugged. i was on the brink of tears.
she told me tat my dad knew of tis n asked her to bring to sch to me.
cos he knew tat i would b rushing n my even b late for cca aftwards.
then mum oso realised he was rite. so, i was saved. and did not implicate others too.

hence, had a great conclusion. i realised tat my parents do love me alot aft all.
and i m grateful to them and luv them too. so, i mus realli treat them loads and loads better from now on.<33

home

2007-08-15T21:08:00.000+08:00

went to claudia's hse to edit videos for the surprise!
cos imac lab is strictly for the use of sch projs. =.=
hahas. had soooo much fun. but too bad had to go off
aft awhile, cos got tuition.

hahas. before going into her hse, claudia called us not to scream,
while she is opening the door. me, yanling & wahlim were lik 0.o
cos we dunno wad she meant. okay, we did when she opened the door.
her dogs jus practically rushed out of the hse and barked. hahas.
scared the shit out of 3 of us as we went screaming and running up the stairs.
hahas. so shocked lor. requested claudia to lock her dogs first before we enter her hse.
hehs. then i the first one who try to enter.i tot there was nth at first, then i suddenly see
something starring at me. OH gosh, its a cat larh. so went screaming again and ran back the stairs. hahas. yanling and wahlim tot the dogs came out again so ran as well.
hilarious. hahas. but i carn help but get shocked mah. hahahas.
but then once we enter and sit on the somehow lik dining table, she went to unlock
the dogs! we were lik screaming for her to not open n for the barking dogs that came.
hahahas. so funny. but got used to them aft awhile. they were soooo cute!!
especially the furry black n white de dog, dunno wad kind de.
hahas. the cat was pretty cute when it was slping and i tink i saw it wink wif one eye for once?

aniwae, was listening to claudia's laptop de songs when came across the song 'Home' by micheal buble. realised that i was looking for it months ago. nice!=)) & btw, claudia thnks loads for ur hospitality!!!=D white chocolate rocks!

fun-filled

2007-08-11T00:33:00.000+08:00

went to becca's hse todae, lotsa fun!
pizza, out in the pool, chit-chat, playground, fun.
what more could you expect?
hahas.

enjoyed swimming de larh.
but the annoying security guard kept patrolling.
then scolded us for not wearing appropriate swimwear.
=.= we not even making loads of noise larh.
then what we wearing okay mah. hahas.
haix, had fun though, but not enuf!
so, i tink i shld plan to stay in a condo nx time huh?
got gym, sauna, pool, tennis court, bb court etc.
worth it eh? hahas.
wait till huafei papa rich liao then we go his hse stay.
hahas. he better see this sentence.=D

aniwae, aft tat went bowling.
spent a total of $12 liddat.
wah kao. haix.
swear tat will not go bowling liao arh
i broke liao!!!=(
hahs. first time play till so hiong.

X-country

2007-08-09T00:20:00.000+08:00

okay.X-country todae was fun!
but bad ting is had to wake up early.lol.
did carpark duty& it was alot alot more slack
as compared to running. hahas.
was so bad when i was standing dere watching the
others run& jus adding oil for them verbally. lol.

btw, ruihan, dun worry.
nx time will be me saying hi kae.
hahas.=))

okay. i find myself getting stupid.
cos i dun even noe the way home from bishan park.
like hello?! i stay at bishan for a decade liao then i still
dunno the way home. lol. so diu lian.
hahas, wait till i master the route man.

12:20 le...so...

Happy Birthday Singapore!
& thnks for the long holiday,
as eik kar has said.hahas.
signing off!=D

2007-08-07T21:46:00.000+08:00

i guess i have been thinking too much.
those thoughts are not meant to be.
FOCUS FOCUS FOCUS on studies!!!
oh man, someone please save me from this misery!!
all this is gettin confusing.
best to forget all bout it.
is love a burden?
well...if only i noe..

pain pain pain

2007-08-07T20:33:00.000+08:00

todae's debate was a success!
both teams from 2e6 won!!!
woo!!! gd job everyone!
mus continue jia you!!!=))

woah..dammit..
suddenly stomache lik siao
then still nid prepare full u...
cos tmr doing carpark duty..dun wan run.
haix..wonder how the hell i prepare man...
pain pain pain!!!

events

2007-08-06T22:08:00.000+08:00

okay.well, i guess i 4got all bout my blog last wk huh.
too tired to update.hahahas.

fri: training was fun fun fun! had RT! woo~! ebjoyed ourselves alot. aft tat oso had the streaming talk..quite okay though. the day was happening!

sat: P.O.P! the parade was significant& ended well.
had bbq all tat& lotsa basketball& sun burning!
another day filled wif joy!

todae: volunteered to do carpark duty on X-country tgt wif ruiying!
hahas. cos dun feel lik running tis yr!=D
but had to wake up earlier=.=

tmr is the debate. everyone mus jia you arh! no matter wad still mus rmb to maintain the 'feng du', lik wad ms tan said. JIA YOU!!=D

i hate shakespeare

2007-08-01T21:11:00.000+08:00

BOO! i hate shakespeare!
lol. scored badly for lit..haix.
although haven even get results already noe le.
cos haven even finish completing all the qns.
haix.flung it again. must study hard for every subj sia.
carn afford any one of them to let me down./=

realised tat coming week filled wif fun events.
looking towards them!=))

history

2007-07-31T15:57:00.000+08:00

ystd watched initial d the movie again.
for the 8th time! no joking.
LOL. i jus get so attracted to it. hahas.
probably cos of the gd looking actors. o.O

aniwae, got back the history C.T todae.
scored well for the first time for history.
17/20!wakaka...lol. cos history is veh bad for last yr.
so hope my results can maintain tis way bah.
but i guess it depends alot on me memorising huh.
hahas.

haix. lit C.T tmr. once again, dun feel lik studying.
especially when it comes to shakespearean lang.
i catch no ball.lol. variation for the maths is the best sia!
so far no probs wif it. jia you=))

unlucky

2007-07-27T20:42:00.000+08:00

okay. i can say that i m plain unlucky todae.
in the morning, whole body ache lik shit, b4
leaving hse, sumting i dun wan it to come, came.

then in sch, throat pain, but better.
aft sch still got ssp. sianz.
then during training, my left little finger
got spliter(sp?)[wood thingy] stuck in it.
so painful when pressed lor. at home, finally
got it out aft squeezing wif hand and hooking and
poking wif a needle. kao, quite painful lor.
spent an hr jus to get the 2 bloody sticks of wood out.
not literally bloody kae.

whole body still ache alot alot.
somebody gimme a massage pls!
hahas.LOL. i guess in the end is me, myself and i
massaging myself.

i can't speak

2007-07-27T08:47:00.000+08:00

okay. i m having alot of difficulty wif
my throat. my sore sore throat.
argh. so damn painful.

i can't speak.
i can't laugh, talk, sing, scream, shout
&any other things that got to do wif my mouth.
eating is inclusive. argh!

i can't lalala~ &hahaha anymore.
BOO!

i flung my maths, again.

2007-07-27T07:18:00.000+08:00

i hereby officially announce that i flung my maths journal.
wah kao. i dun even understand the qns well larh, then oso
nv giv examples. haix. hope will pass larh, but score well of
cos is even better. but impossible. =.=

the worse ting is, i left my specs in sch.
omg. precious can. better not get lost.
or else i will cry lik shit man, ex can.
even if wan to change oso mus wait until the end of the yr.
pray hard~

i wan the purple zinc bag!=D

i need lozenges to survive

2007-07-26T21:11:00.000+08:00

just came back from the clinic.
went to buy lozenges for my sore throat.
actually wanted to buy 1 box only de, but since
it seems as if it is getting from bad to worse, bought
2 boxes instead. LOL. carn help it. i need it to survive.

i miss my voice,
i miss my laughter,
i miss my screams!
ugh! i wanna cry!

historical

2007-07-26T09:27:00.000+08:00

okay. happy mood todae!
spent an hr plus ystd jus to memorise the notes.
LOL. me being so hardworking to study history in
not-the-last-min. then keep forgetting some of it todae,
so during recess revise revise. luckily ms tan gave us time
to revise arh. if not sure fail de. all thnks to her man!<3

at least efforts paid off for the essay qns.
so confident for essay for the first time sia. miracle.
so i guess i can study if i wan to de eh?

well, el lesson quite okay but still sian.
did the exercise on 'heart' de. wad heart throb, soft-hearted,
hard-hearted all tat de. LOL. but still did those aniwae.

i love life&
i want to live life to the fullest!
i am ~~soft-hearted~~ hard-hearted.
i have no heart-throbs.
i have no heartaches.
in my heart of hearts!<3

i guess the el lesson affected me huh. =.=

test-a-mania

2007-07-25T10:22:00.000+08:00

test test test test test test test.
all day long test test test.
first el test, lata home econs test, then history test...blarblarblar.
haix.carn even hav a day of gd rest.

home econs test so-so lor. but quite sure can pass larh,
at least can do better than last yr.
cos tis yr at least made effort to study.LOL.
went to lab for home econs research.

reearch until so sian lor.
so slack slack slack.
then liwei was blogging.
saying wad shihui laughing or things liddat.
lol. so bored can.

no mood to memorise history sia..
sian arh!

cold cold nite

2007-07-24T11:16:00.000+08:00

nowadays rain rain rain.
hahas.gd larh. liddat nicer to slp.
but bad ting is tat dun wan to wake up&
no mood to study.LOL.

having home econs tests tmr.
but so tired& becos of the weather...
zZZzzZZz...

happy racial harmony

2007-07-20T21:35:00.000+08:00

Happy racial harmony day!

wakaka.
everyone wore their ethnic costumes todae.
almost all of the girls wore indian clothes.
hahahs. but nevertheless, everyone looked nice!=D

took quite a few class photos.
hahahs.so fun!
papa look so shuai!
cos of his mature& tall look.
look as if they r wearing bath robes.hahahs.

i tink u misunderstood wad we were implying to u.
aniwae, if u still tink its our fault, i apologize.
but if u carn accept, no matter wad we say oso wun
get into ur mind.so, do listen to us.
if only u listened to us n not deny the fact.
nth could hav turned out tis way.
aniwae, hope everyting ends well.

move your butts off

2007-07-19T12:21:00.000+08:00

Get out of the way.

ethnic clothes!=D

2007-07-18T20:11:00.000+08:00

wahahahas.aft much consideration,
finally went to buy the ethnic clothes todae.
bought indian de...veh nice=)
veh cheap lor...top+scarf+brooche(sp?)
only $9 nia leh..but i tink quality nt those kind
of veh gd de larh...but still presentable. hahas.

heard tat papa going to wear yukata.
hahahs. wif him being so tall, i tink it will look veh nice
on him..cos he looks mature too.hahahs. shuai eh?
but then the prob is, he mayb wearing white shoes.
not nice lor, cos not matching.but all becos of the sch.
haix.LOL. aniwae, looking forwad to fri!=D

p.s. thnks loads to ruiying for her accompany!x)

the beginning of your nightmare.

2007-07-17T22:37:00.000+08:00

i dunno y but somehow,
one is jus so prejudiced against sumone.
i din wan to mention it all at first, but what one
had said, was jus too overboard tat i carn take it
anymore. STOP tinking that u hav the authority to stop
others from doing wad they wan to. they hav their own
freedom. even if HATE & PREJUDICE existed, dun tink others
will stop wat they wan to do. there r ways & means achieve if
despite ur foolish actions. dun tink others do not noe wad u r
tinking. they mayb even clearer bout it than u tink.
just wait & see.

i am& will not be influenced by you.not anymore.
i dunno y i even hate others for nth in the past,
jus becos of the lil tings you said, changed our views.
if you tink you r accepted,
hah, tink otherwise. i am alot more happier as
compared to the past. i hav much more true frens.
happiness will not be accumilated when you watch as
others fail. you are the one who is going down instead.
trust me, it will be soon. sooner than you can imagine.

no one else is in my hate dictionary.
except for you. keep that in mind,
watch your back. an eye for an eye it shall be.
your wish is granted& it is the awakening of
your nightmare.

trip and fall

2007-07-09T20:46:00.000+08:00

went to wing tai or wad de building for adidas sale ystd.
wa lao...was going to enter then trip over tat stupid
drain cover or wad larh. look so much lik the floor lor.
then its lik so embarassing larh, fall down.
then intially i tot is kena cut liao lor, but in the end turn out tat
got quite a big wound quite pain lor. can imagine how shiok it is when
i wash it wif water?=.= LOL.

todae oso take height& weight,
wah lao, the height 1 not accurate de lor.
then oso dunno is the weighing machine got prob or i realli slim down lor.
hahahs.lame shit larh.
go chiong home econs coursework liao.haix...

i dun wan it to become tis way.

siann...tired!

2007-07-05T20:56:00.000+08:00

woah...tue, fri n sat training.
haix, so tired nowadays.
can even slp at 8+pm aft training on tue.
damn tired sia. go home still headache n neckache.
double suffering. no wonder can slp so early larh.LOL.

looking forward to sat!
a teeny weeny lil bit becos of training,
but the main reason is becos gonna meet my cousins n
relatives!! such a long time nv meet up lor. tis sat is a gd
time to get tgt. oso nid to pass my cousin her bdae present.
dunno she lik it not leh. guess she will larh huh, since its cute.
hahas. gotta go pack tings for tmr liao.or else dunnid slp le.

is the change towards me gd?
i dun wan it if its gonna mean sumting bad.
i jus carn seem to let go n forget u.
would u b dere for me?

thanks guys<3

2007-07-04T22:50:00.000+08:00

wahahaha.
finally started on my sana proj le.
thnks lots to all those who helped to take the survey!
Corrine, Hua Fei, Casmine & Shi Ping!!!=)
thnks lots to u guys man, u all make my day!=D

still nid 5 more ppl to help leh..wahahas.
grab more ppl tmr to help!!
heh.dun blame me if u did the survey many times le larh.
carn help it u noe. i dunno many ppl.hahahas.

still, thanks guys! luv ya all!=P

updating, finally

2007-07-01T14:55:00.000+08:00

okay.updating now.LOL.

11th to 13th June -
went to atc camp.
not describing if not will rant on.

14th June to 21 June -
forgot wth i was doing..hahahs.LOL.

22 June to 24 June -
completing leftover hw.LOL.

25 June
first dae of sch, quite okay, jus nid to chiong
maths journal early in the morning.quite a
rare sight for the oh-so-lazy shihui rite?LOL.
aniwae, change of maths tr.shes the kinda tr tat
teaches & expects us to complete our work so fast de tr.
aniwae, she overall okay larh, can understand her lessons & all,
but only prob is shes gonna giv loads of hw & shes too fast.

26 to 28 June
nth much, jus studying studying.
got new history tr. not bad too. had loads of fun wif lao ba,yanling
& kelly when completing the 'legend of Bishan'.hahahs.loads of crap.
overall, a great 1st wk of sch to begin wif.
enjoying sch is not hard at all wif frens around=D

29 June
pissed off by someone. who is oh-so-flirty & disgusting.
well, market survey shows tat 98% of the ppl we surveyed
is well, pissed off too. dun wan to mention anyting else.

but, shooting ain't for me?
mayb my aiming is jus tat bad huh?
cos i got a big fat ZERO.hahas. aniwae, will work hard!

30 June
went to kbox wif yanling, yiwei & corrine!!!
had loads of fun.hahahs. were all crazy when it comes to
'Get High' by f.i.r. hahahs. aniwae, bill bout $22.50 & i officially
announce tat i m BROKE.so many tings wan to buy, gotta scrimp&save liao.
hehs.aniwae, will update soon.

btw, lao ba!paiseh arh, jio u out but end up liddat=(
nvm, there's a nx time kae? for ur papa day& oso
our youth day present!=D

mountain lil tortoise

2007-06-09T22:14:00.000+08:00

ystd went out wif ruiying!!!
penguin& guinpen tgt..hahahs!!
hmm.chingmay carn come, so
the 2 'road idiots' (lu4 chi1) had to
save themselves.
met guinpen at j8 but went to serangoon
to take bus instead. sry arh!!
made u take a longer bus journey...

took 100 n went to army market..
had lunch, shared chicken claypot rice,
YUM YUM~!!!
looked around but dunno go where buy.
cos we wan cheap cheap de mah.
then jus went to tis particular indian auntie shop.
(i not trying to say aniting bad bout her okay.><") bought many tings needed for atc there. then shaun tat gay penguin ask us help him buy tings. but we dun wan leh, wad u can do to us? hahas. but still help him buy aniway, kind souls=D also help chingmay buy uni cover etc. hahahs.if only shes here to help us decide tings. =(. but at least we noe how to go dere, not lost. wah seh, tat auntie earn loads from us leh, $23! bet no one buy as much as us huh, hahas. aft tat went to suntec city, my idea. to go dere buy trackpants at 'why pay more' wah kao, closed down liao...><"
tink changed to sell golf tings or wad de.
i guess i m a certified mountain tortoise hor.
sian diao lor. then went another sports shop.
all damn ex de.
realli pai seh arh guinpen!
made u make a wasted trip& carn buy ur trkpnts.
haix. but gd ting todae is,
i m a lil less road idiot liao.heh.

not ready to make nice

2007-06-05T04:50:00.000+08:00

Dixie Chicks - Not Ready To Make Nice

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

I'm through with doubt
There's nothing left for me to figure out
I've paid a price
And I'll keep paying

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
Its too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can]t bring myself to do what it is you think I should

I know you said
Can't you just get over it
It turned my whole world around
And I kind of like it

I made my bed and I sleep like a baby
With no regrets and I don't mind sayin'
It's a sad sad story when a mother will teach her
Daughter that she ought to hate a perfect stranger
And how in the world can the words that I said
Send somebody so over the edge
That they'd write me a letter
Sayin' that I better shut up and sing
Or my life will be over

I'm not ready to make nice
I'm not ready to back down
I'm still mad as hell and
I don't have time to go round and round and round
It's too late to make it right
I probably wouldn't if I could?
Cause I'm mad as hell
Can't bring myself to do what it is you think I should

Forgive, sounds good
Forget, I'm not sure I could
They say time heals everything
But I'm still waiting

on holiday!

2007-06-05T04:30:00.000+08:00

since my dear guinpen ask me to update,
then i will.hahahs.aniwae, quite sian at home lor.
eat sleep tee-vee comp sch hw etc.
lol. so random huh.

todae went back to sch to get kit-list for atc
haix, dun realli look forward to it. cos i tink i
wun lik the grping. hope to b wif guinpen or chingmay.
hahahas. i guess my hair got feud wif a few ppl hor,
always got pulled. u noe who u all r okay. hahahs.

one ting, 28 may, went for retreat. rollerskate, so fun.
only fell once, lucky hor, but no cuts, no nth.
kelly's senior even said tat i looked lik those mixed-blood.
hahhas. do i? dun tink so huh.hehs.
been said to hav came from china when young. hahas.
comical.i m official pure chinese singaporean. hahas.

aniwae, everyone take care n enjoy ur holidays!=D

izit rite to forget my feelings towards u?
izit true tat i forgot those feelings?
do u return those feelings?
i wish i knew.

parent tr conference

2007-05-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

special thanks for the ppl who showed their concerns
and encouragement on the previous post!
things were getting better=)

went to sch for parent-tr conference ystd.
quite okay larh. cos got gd comments.hahas.
ms tan said i got no probs in class, got hand in hw, quiet
during lessons, gd attitude n character n all....but, she
feels tat i m too quiet. hahas. true though. cos if got anyting
always ask kelly to ask. hahas. thx eh. mum not veh satisfied wif
results lar. but when ms tan explained tat its above avr, mum
quite okay wif it liao lor. haix. advised to take social studies or history
for humanities, cos geo tis yr damn lan. but dun feel lik taking history
though. jus see how it goes bah.

quite alot of events coming up. gonna b a bz holiday.boo.

i wan reliance

2007-05-22T13:54:00.000+08:00

why can't they just simply trust their children.
to just trust their judgement.
i m not as stupid as you tink i m.
i m fourteen, i hav my own thoughts & feelings.
did they try to understand us?
no, not at all.
they just know how to nag at you for going out so frequently.
to sentosa, to bowling & to gatherings.
they tink ur frens are all rebels who will teach u the wrong tings.
they tink they are always right.

i wanted to work hard.
for their sake. for my sake.
i planned schedules to study wif frens.
to clear my doubts. guess wad they said.
its not exams, wads there to study.
go out for so many times, dun wan to stay at home.
and they tink i m hot-tempered if i argued.
i wanted to explain & let them understand.
BUT they never tried to. NOT AT ALL.

they just vent their anger at you when they feel like it.
they just treat you nice when they feel like it.
they blamed me for not preparing early when i mugged overnight.
it never came across their minds, tat at least i m making an effort to do well.
they groan when you did not get the results tat they wanted.
they treated you as if you are invisible.
as if i m so unimportant.

no matter how good my results are, its not enough.
to them. not enough at all.
when i achieved 70+, A1.
they would blame me for not getting 80+.
when i achieved 50+, worked hard.
they say i did not work hard enough.
formed study grps to study weekly.
they said exams are just over, wad for?

they never tink tat their words are daggers tat stab.
those hurtful words.
they never tink how fragile i m.
they never tink tat i would fake up a front to act brave.
i would never shed tears in front of them.NEVER.
my heart is bleeding.
soon turning numb & has no feeling.

my bed, pillow & bolster is my best companion.
it will always dry the tears i've shed.
it will never push me away.
i m drown in sorrows.
music cures & heals.
all the bloody cuts & lies.

things are getting rough nowadays.
i dun wanna go home.
where are they when i needed them badly?
where are the ones whom i loved before?
where are the ones who picked me up when i fell down?
who understands the real me?
the me who needs their care, love & understanding?
the me who is still growing & not independent?
i need someone to rely on.
i m so freaking tired.
i just wanted to sleep and not wake up forever.
but can i & do i wan?

npdp gathering!=D

2007-05-16T12:19:00.000+08:00

actually planned to go kelly hse audi de..
but too bad her desktop audition got prob.
so woke up around 10+...
then prepared n all tat to go to the npdp gathering
at j8.
was late, cos was so slow at preparing.hahas.

all of them reach liao, except for khairul n maureen,
who will come late. met up at macs, had lunch.
then shopped around. decided to watch movies!
but only got 4 available.=.=
wanted towatch 28 wks later, but M18.
then left spiderman 3, 200 pounds beauty &
another narnia de.wahahahax!
watch 200 pounds beauty. did not expect it
to be so touching lor. the 4 of us(gals) sobbing at the
back.hahahs.was nice n funny, but nevertheless,
portrayed the power of love and heartaches.

also took neoprints!!!had such a hard time.
got a total of 7-8 ppl i guess. hahhas.
great first-time experience though. cramp.
hahahs. realli had loads of fun. missed you guys loads
and look forward to another gathering!no-one-less!=D

mama's day!<33

2007-05-14T13:09:00.000+08:00

had steamboat n tiramisu cake todae in celebration of mother's day!!!
mummy, happy mother's day!!!=D

big kor finally found the charger for kor's mp3, n he gave me the mp3!!!!so excited lor....but had to get earpiece. cos he used the original one for his own use, his psp.=.=

hahahs. aniwae, grateful enough tat he gav me his mp3 lor.yep.for dinner, went downstairs the coffee shop to eat. but the prob is, due to mother's day, the order damn long lor. wait le oso pek cek. cos the ppl bz liao then anihow cook de lor. haix.tsk tsk.

down the pins go

2007-05-13T14:02:00.000+08:00

went to kovan for bowling todae!!!wif yanling, eik kar, kelly and corrine!!!
played 2 games liao, then yanling was complaining to go to bunk to play audition. so went to hav lunch. then was dragged to hougang mall. yanling and corrine went to bunk while me n kelly went to hougang mall to shop. there quite okay lar, but bought nth. met up wif yanling and corrine again. they actually wanted to go to shernise's hse de, but cos kelly insisted on going to j8, went to j8 lor. but again, found out its too late liao, then went to serangoon n took 105 home.

at nite, had dinner wif dad n kor at s11 at bishan, then went to j8. looked for leather wristband, earrings n others, but nth suits my mood tat day. bought nth, except my breakfast for the nx few days. dunno wad bar thingy lah. wanted it so badly cos i wan to slim down.not again rites? but seriously hope to succeed tis time. LOL.byebye.=D

sentosa cum e6 class gathering!

2007-05-12T12:46:00.000+08:00

ystd's the day!!! 11o5o7!!! esix's class gathering rite after the exams!!cool huh!!aniwae, in the morning quite sway....was in a happy n excited mood to go to sentosa, but came a heavy rain in early morning. brought the blossom(not powerpuff girl lar!) PAPER bag to school to contain my clothes. the bag tat i kept for such a long time b4 using it. my treasure. but due to the downpour in the morning, it tore. my heart tore. hahas. but seriously, sad leh. i 'bu she de' use leh.then now i finally take out to use then turn out liddat=.=

but, it wasn't so bad aft tat incident. listening compre was okay. aft tat kelly n yanling went to my home to prepare for the trip. actually nv go de, becos tat day i got ahem-ahem, carn play wif water?but still went lar. prepared le then set off n all tat. going out wif the class feels a lot more different man!!was damn relaxed n happy lor, no worries n oso becos the exams r over!!=D

went to vivo, had lunch @ banquet n took the monorail. hua fei, the oldest guy=D, took care of us as if we were his children lor. took care of us so well, made sure of our safety all tat. THANK YOU LAO BA!!!!=D

went to palawan beach. took pictures and blar blar. playing in the sea was so fun!!!did not take part in the seaweed fight though, cos me n yanling were scared lik shit by seaweeds=.=
hung on to corrine so tight n she 'carried' us around lor. so sweet n romantic hor. hahahs.thanks corrine!!!=) had champhane n snacks there.woo~!!!!so much fun!!carn describe it all.ms tan n ms chong came aft tat. so touching lor, cos they nid to go aft a while liao, yet they still made the trip there. thanks loads for completing the day!!!aft tat went off to kovan for bowling de. but half-way there realised tat it was veh late le, around 6.30 le i guess. so set off home lor. went home, had dinner then watched tv n zZZZzzZzz...but, woke up by parents at 12+am, bathe then slept.carn stand the salt.hahahs.

post the pics nx time aft i get from yanling=D.

outcome of slackiness

2007-05-11T12:38:00.001+08:00

last paper of the mid-yr le.
i feel so torn, so disappointed wif myself.
i said i had done my best, but did i??
i certainly did mug n all tat, if i weren't so bz for the last few wks, i could hav revised a lot for tis exam, but those r jus excuses i gave myself. i am sure that i flung all my papers except for hcl,the only subj i hav confident in. but tat doesn't mean tat i had improved. its jus becos the tr set it at average standard. hence, i shld'nt b too contented. i dunno how to face my tuition tr wif these lousy results i got. i can predict it even if i had not gotten back my paper. i mus work hard, stop slacking!!i may say it now but forget about it the nx moment, hence, mus remind myself n jia you!!!!=D

tmr is listening compre. shld i go to sentosa tmr rite aft the exams? or shld i go out wif my mum as schelduled, to get my shopping list checked?well, aft much consideration, decided to go on the class outing instead, hope i made the rite decision, to hav fun n not getting pang seh-ed.=)

bdaes!=DD

2007-04-29T14:08:00.000+08:00

todae celebrated me n kor's b-dae.
went to wat our favourite curry fish head at bedok!woo~!
so nice man!!before tat went to vivo to get my jeans, oso bought
kappa shoes..aft tat jus shopped around n the day's over...zZZzZz

filming o.0

2007-04-28T12:37:00.000+08:00

26o407

went to mediacorp todae for the filming of

'wo shi chuang xin wang'. so cool!!!!saw the

damn cute n sunshine guy: zhangyaodong!!!

he is also our dai yan ren for our sch's product.

he so shuai!!!haahs...aniwae, also saw apple hong

yi xin, so pretty!!!hahhas...jack neo, li guo huang

n chen jian bin so humorous lor.hahas.aniwae,

enjoyed ourselves lots. but mus wait for a couple

of wks before its shown on tv.hahahs.carn wait!

27o4o7

the day aft filming..everybody reached home late

ystd and r all damn tired todae. but, i still did manage

to stay awake during geo to revise for previous chapters.

the class is so quiet todae lor.first time ever. hahs.

but its normal, as all of us were so damn tired.

aft recess wasn't tat bad, everyone 'awake' liao,more active, but

nevertheless, still TIRED.aft sch, went to macs at serangoon for lunch,

and to complete our script for the el proj.. listen to music while doing

script.hahs.so relaxing n fun.

aft tat kelly, tgt wif shannen, minghao n esther also came to join us.

then jianyi n cindy went off, only left me n yanling wif the others. tok

about random things n playing around.minghao is quite a fun guy=)

i understand y kelly lik them so much now.

hah. tortured kelly for saying me n *ahem* when its so not true.

the stupid so-call-rumour created by kelly n yanling.tsk tsk.

not to mention saying it out loud to ms chong

during geo. hehs.also camwhored wif yanling.

went to the playground nearby to play. and swing swing~

we go!!so fun!!so long nv swing liaos. hahs.SWING SWING!!!

watcha looking at!

smiles!=D

separation & memories

2007-04-22T14:57:00.001+08:00

todae, the actual day of NPDP.
prepared cookies n cards to giv the area5 family,
ching may made till so nice till i carn bear to
part wf them!=) ching may did not say anything bout
buying the cookies from famous amous n all, which caused
jialing's misconception. she tot it was home-made cookies
at first, but aft eating, she tink it tastes familiar n lik
famous amous cookies. hahas. we were laughing our heads
off bout it. the 40 of us managed to endure thru the whole parade.
none of the 40 in contingent 3 fall out. had wonderful memories of
contingent 3, area 5 family n area 20(?). Gonna miss them loads.
rawk on guys!!=D

"Contingent 3`o7; the beautiful memories..."

"Contingent 3`o7 watch your front, keluar baris!and there are memories left behind..."

every good thing have to come to an end.
nothing is an exception.

went to macs near kovan for dinner cum supper.
wif ching may, xiu quan n jaron.
got to learn more bout jaron n the others from st. gabs.
chatted there till around 10.45pm.
had to go home, cos its late.
bided goodbye n went separate ways.
jaron to opp. of mrt station,
me, xiu quan n ching may to the bus stop at the mrt station.
xiu quan waited till me n ching may boarded 153 before leaving
to the mrt station. so thoughtful of him=). hahahs.

reached home at around 11+pm.
first time reaching home so late, going out alone.
veh tired...unpacked my things,
bathe n went to slp...zZZzzZzzz...

swim swim, fly away

2007-04-16T11:50:00.000+08:00

went to bishan swimming complex wif kor n shijia to swim todae.
finally learned backstroke and practised the others.

at nite,kor went to taiwan.
carn go to airport to send him cos too late by the time we sent him
up the plane.wish him all the best for the days spent there w/o me.
haahas...bhb,lolx.hope tat he can help me buy adidas or puma jacket
and nike bag.lets jus hope tat his bag got space.
so he can save me from the coldness of the hall for mid-yr papers.
i await for 8 may=D

broken

2007-04-13T11:43:00.000+08:00

Broken - Seether feat. Amy Lee

[Shawn Morgan]
(Verse 1)
I wanted you to know
That I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain …away
I keep your photograph
And I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

[Shawn Morgan & Amy Lee]
(Chorus 1)
because I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away

[Shawn Morgan]
(Bridge)
You've gone away
You don't feel me here....anymore

[Amy Lee]
(Verse 2)
The worst is over now
And we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn
And no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain

[Shawn Morgan & Amy Lee]
(Chorus 2)
cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

[Instruments][Shawn Morgan & Amy Lee]
(Chorus 2)
cause I'm broken when I'm open
And I don’t feel like I am strong enough
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don’t feel right when you’re gone away

[Shawn Morgan & Amy Lee]
(Chorus 1)
cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone

[Seether]
...away

[Shawn Morgan and Amy Lee]
(Bridge)
You're gone away
You don't feel me here....anymore

vindicated

2007-04-10T11:36:00.000+08:00

Vindicated - Dashboard Confessionals

Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So, mesmerizing and so hypnotizing,
I am captivated, I am

{Chorus}
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed, but I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself

So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me
So isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am

{Chorus}

So turn up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment for forever

Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'll be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away x3
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away x4

{Chorus}

Like hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...

deception

2007-04-09T11:49:00.000+08:00

i dunno wad the hell i m doing.
i m so confused.
i din wan tis to happen.
i did not expect tis from myself.
i knew tat i luved him, but i tried to deceive myself,
by accepting a guy whom i dun hav tat kinda feelings.
it haunted me all nite, i carn sleep at all.
and so, i did wad was rite n i was relieved tat we were fine.
i dun feel bad now, though i m still guilty.
but i m glad tat it ended even before it started.
i m still obsessed wif him, the one who is rite for me all along=).

i am sorry to tell you this,
but you ain't right for me.
i've got someone else in my heart,
and you can't replace him.
let's just hope that as time passes,
you will forget about me.

fourteen officially=D

2007-04-07T11:26:00.000+08:00

o6o4o7; the day tat i hav been lookin forward to.

i m officially sweet fourteen,hahax..

received blessings from 2e6`o7, felt so

xin4 fu2, although they sang to delay time for the

other times...hahax...thx loads guys!!!=D

the cute cute teddy(wif pink ribbon) from yanling,

kelly n jianyi

'diary' from yuyan, but chosen by

me,wahahas..

gotten a surprise on tis happy day of mine!!

he sent me an sms in the morning to wish me

happy b-dae!!!so happy can!cos i din expect

him to rmb at all.and tis day is complete wif

him.i m so hypnotized, mesmerized.

i will always wait for you,

i want to receive a b-dae wish from you every single yr,

i want to have you beside me always,

and i will always love you.

revived

2007-04-06T13:42:00.000+08:00

Woo~!!

finally back to blogging le...
actually already started on it for quite long ago liao lor,
but had probs wif blogskin.so sian wifout blog.lol.
and thanx to those who cared bout my blog.hahs

i miss u, keep holding on

2007-04-06T11:09:00.000+08:00

that day(o2o4o7),
my pace quickened as my heart raced.
red coming to my cheeks and my chest tightening.
i can't breathe, i felt as if i m dying.
i tot i saw the familiar back and had the same feeling.
delibrately missed the bus to wait for him.
but turned out to b another guy.
but nvm, at least for now, i m certain tat my feelings
for him r still there...
and i will keep holding on!!

i love you,
i miss you,
i cry for you,
i wish for you,
but did you??

if only time can re-wind,
till back then;